Solace In Silence

Sometimes I seek solace in silence

Filled with agony and distress

On my way lost my innocence

Here I stand seeking out aimless

Sometimes I wonder about my smile

Is it my way to live the perfect lie

I think about my confident streak

Is it a disguise of me being a freak

Sometimes I run away from my reflection

I am way beneath perfection

I walk in path of a pleasant present

Haunted Past leaves me in dissent

Sometimes I need to scream in pain

Ends with aching heart in despair

In vogue of searching my name

I found my soul dead in disdain

Dreams of My REALITY

 

 

If I could ever tell you my dreams,
I would show how simple life would seem,
I would be the wanderer of my life,
I create the destiny for what I strive..

 

If I could show you my tears,
Could I also trust you with my fears,
will you see beyond the realm,
or judge me the way others did…

 

If I ever said my smile is a mask,
filled with agony that makes me aghast,
will you be the new strength I found,
unquestioning faith that still lingers around..

 

 

 

If I let you touch my scar,
will you like the imperfect me,
not wound me further with your words and deeds,
would you let me be what I want me to be..

 

If I want to live my dream,
still will you believe the spark in me,
hold me tight and still not possess me,
let me fly I don’t want to own and be owned…

 

If I still asked you to be part of the journey,
will you be cynical about destination nowhere,
can you share the highs and low,
and not count the flaws alone…

 

 

 

If you still have unwavering faith and be part of me,
will share my lonely soul to make it complete,
can you have the patience with me,
love me for I am me and still let me be..   

 

If I tell you this is the dream of my reality,
will you stand and fight alongside,
walk along the untrodden path,
because this might be the only fairytale I ever seeked…

 

Tribute to True Friends Comfort

Trapped in the lonely  path

you came to show me the way..

Life filled with darkness

you showed me rainbow and ray

Oh how I didn’t remember

what it was to smile and play…

Filled with anxiety and distress

you brought joy and mirth this day…

The bleaky rain tore my heart

you mended and bended rule heresay…

Oh how I didn’t remember

what it was to turn away…

Caught with my own sorrow

now I can see the bright side this way…

Held me close in ur arm

you said precious is the way stay right there…

There is a better tomorrow

you need not feel discouraged…

I know now what I wanted

you pleaded no more me to change…

Stay in that phase forever you said

He would love you the best even at your worst…

Waiting around the corner somewhere

just destiny is about to cross both of your way…

Till then I found you my friend

sharing my trouble and pain…

Comfort that I seek

find in you deep within…

A string that joins us both

oh but nothing to judge behold..

Now I believe when you say that

You made me see my real self …

Oh dear you don’t know

ought I do without you..

Gazing at the star with me

forever happily after we dream!!

LoNeLy NiGhTs…

Smile that refuses to reach her eyes,
Life.. She paid heavy price.
Tears that helped little to hide her fear,
Scarred her.. no longer let anyone near..    

Cruelty kept weaving its ploy,
Still she held on to her coy.
She went on keeping her spirits high,
All a sham.. oh how Naive.
She kept longing for happiness,
Wide spread wings were of loneliness..

Slept dreaming about beds of roses,
eyes fluttered open piercing thorn oozes
Scared of disdain nights,
still brought dismayed fright..

Stretched out her hands to hold,
untold stories possessed heart behold.
Craving for love turning to dust,
Oh.. they breached her trust.
Follows now nightmare where sorrows drown,
Forlorn the broken heart frowns..

Aching for the unfulfilled dreams for long,
deaf hears the incomplete note of her song.
Irony is fate of her life,
She still claimed no matter what that life is MINE!!

MY Life.. My Scar

Can’t you see through what I’ve been,
Life is not how it seem.
Dreams come crashing down…
Tears trickle rolling on.
Its so cruel…
My world being so cruel.

The smiling face lost its charm.
Glowing grace feel so scar…
Reality struck me hard…
Difficult is the path.

Every minute you spent with me,
Warmth you shared with me…
Comfort has been lost,
Love for which we fought.
You were everything to me.
How could you not really see.
We were just driftin apart.. Going so apart.

We could’ve fitted in,
Managed to settle in.
I looked out everywhere for you…
But you were not by my side.. you were not beside.

Can life be so mean snitch…
Took happiness without flinch.
I screamed out in pain,
Was left alone in rain.
You walked oblivious on the path…
Didn’t stop me going so far.

You gave in to fate..
But I still couldn’t hate.
You were the world to me.
Life revolved around you see.
Now I’ve nowhere to seek.
I’m feelin so lost.. Life looks so gross.

Why can’t you just hold my hand..
Take me in your arm
and say we would be strong
to face together what comes along.

This is irony of my life..
Have you but not call you mine..
A brief encounter I still crave
memories I will treasure till grave..
Smile on my face not reach my eyes..
Waiting for you on the lonely street.. I still gaze.

Losing YOUR L♥\/E

Life made sense 

with your presence…

Its losing its essence

with your absence

Scared me to be luckiest person on earth

much more precious than I can ever be worth…

Used to scar I know I wud still walk stronger

pain from you is far you wud hurt getting weaker…

You deserve a person much better

someone who won’t ever let you shatter…

A time will come you spend your life with

what i would not want to barter to be your wife still…

We don’t always get what we seek

God might had a future of your peek..

You are his favorite  person you said

he surely have reason for me to fade…

I was never right 

still wana hold you tight…

My plans have never worked for future

you are my love no matter even if you are immature…

I talk sometime sensible

I want things amicable..

You are everything I ever wanted..  

not even last thing I want is we parted 

You were my pride
we took life in stride..
The voice that captivated me for so long is lost
Everything seem so wrong at my life cost…

I am LOST…

You came as morning dew

made me feel lively fresh,

Something I long everyday

But know heart can’t possess,

You are my life’s breaking dawn

after facing the complete darkness,

You are the one who wiped my tear

made me glow bringing a smile,

You are the one with whom I shared my fear

didn’t flinch seeing my naked scar,

I always wana have you near

But still I know u can never be mine dear…

Life decides to play cruel joke

took you away whom I wanted the most,

Granted wish to live happily ever after

But connived me knowing now I am completely lost…

Kuch aise

kuch khamosh alfaz
hain labo par dabe huye,

kuch ankahe haqeeqat
hain aks ko sataye huye,

kuch tadapte ehsaas
hain teri ore kheechte huye,

kuch chupe huye armaan
hain palko mein biche huye,

kuch deewane jazbaat
hain dil mein dhadkte huye,

kuch kashish gehri
hain bebas karte huye,

kuch zindagi ke safar adhure
hain tere bin kaate huye,

kuch lamhe churaye
hain haseen pal sanjote huye,

kuch taraste nigahe
hain mulakat ke aas lagaye huye,

kuch rishta darmiyaan
hain anjaane dor se bandhe huye,

kuch mohabaat ke nagme
hain dil ke kone mein sajaye huye,

kuch taqdeer se jhagda
hain tujhe apna banate huye.

Everyone says… But They don’t really know

Everyone says I need to move on

I can’t with your memory lingering on

The days remind me of the happier times so much

The nights aches for your whisper and touch

Everyone says I am being a fool

but they don’t know about our promise

You had told you will come for me soon

I need to hold on for some more time

Everyone says I need to let go

How do I tell them what we shared

I know for each other we really cared

it is our soul that we have scarred

Everyone says time heals everything

How do I tell them you are my everything

I wait for you, crying, put myself to sleep

you know it in your heart we shared something deep

Everyone says we are poles apart

But don’t opposite poles attract?

The bitter sweet moments remain

The lifeless me has become mundane

Everyone says we are better off away

how do I tell them the feel of our body rhythmic sway

Everything felt so right when you were around

It pains now searching for you never to be found

MY Life… NO Fairytale

I was a normal dame…
believing in fairy tale,

Hoping for happily every after…
all I got was sorrow hereafter,

Trust me I said…
insecure heart craved,

I hated obsessive…
got entwined with possessive,

Caring of soul faltered…
could do nothing about ego altered,

looked forward for bliss of happiness…
instead found twinge of sadness,

Emotions surged captivated…
wished it had never got manipulated,

Illusion promised lovely vows…
reality claimed just cruel woes,

No longer believes in happy ending…
all I have is emptiness killing….